Nourishing my 'attach' part


I had the most wonderful day with my mum and her partner David today. It was so good. We explored the local bird reserve in the Autumn sunshine, chatted, laughed and got on well. And now my 'attach' part is triggered, so I'm writing this blog to get to know it a bit more.

She feels like she's going to burst with the amount of love she has for mum.

There's also a feeling of vulnerability present, of loss and sadness. I'm letting her know that I'm here for her now; that I can protect her and that she is safe.

She has put mum on a pedestal, idealising her, and feeling like she's an amazing woman, who she cannot live without. I'm reminding her that mum is an amazing woman, but that she is an amzing woman too. I'm also reminding her that mum has imperfections, just like everyone else does. 

She feels afraid that she won't be able to cope with having a relationship with her because of her issues. She also feels hopeful that she will. I'm letting her know that it doesn't matter either way; she's amazing;  I'm here for her unconditionally; she is safe now and whole as she is. She is also free; completely and utterly free to do what she feels like in the moment.

In my body, I can feel her in my chest, which is where I usually feel my parts. She's writhing around in the centre of my chest, feeling stuck and wanting to burst out. There's energy running through my lower legs also. I'm not sure what to do with these sensations, but I'm going to soothe my chest now, as that's calling out to be nurtured. I'm letting the sensation know it's free.



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