I feel trapped
I feel like I can't go on. Everything feels so scary and just too much. I've tried so hard to get better over the past 4 years, to feel lighter and freer, but people are scary and I feel trapped in this situation where people are all around me. That's right - I feel trapped. I feel completely and utterly trapped. Dependent on people, but terrorised by them too. Like I have to face them, but I'm too scared. What's the answer to this? How on earth do I get over this? Do I need to 'feel' the feelings? Do I need to ignore them? Or maybe I need to do a bit of in between. But how on earth do I do this inbetween? The thing is that I've tried so much and nothing seems to have worked. Feeling trapped makes me feel weak and like I can't go on. It makes me want to curl up and cry. It's a horrible horrible feeling... If I'm honest it makes me want to die. Dying would be better than feeling trapped by people. But I'm scared of dying, so I'm trapp...